One set of parents down....

....one more to go.

We told John's family Wednesday night that we're planning on adoption. If I could have my way, we would have waited much longer to tell. But John's the type of guy that can't keep secrets or presents; he has to give and share almost immediately or it drives him insane. Personally - I can't stand it that other people know. I can't tell you why and I don't know how I could ever change when it comes to sharing with people about my person life (yes, even my family), but it's done.

We were having dinner with his mom, dad and brothers and just before arriving we finally had a serious discussion on getting our finances straightened out. We don't have alot of debt (we're way under what the average amount is for young couples) but it's better to be serious about it now than later. Our costs for adoption are pretty much covered, but it the "afterwards" that we're thinking of. Most likely, I will be a stay-at-home mom and that will cut back our extra monthly cash intake. Better get it out of the way.

Anyhow, back to the in-laws....dinner was over and John pulled me aside and turns it into a "why are we keeping secrets from our family" conversation. And that's all I'm going to say about b/c I don't want to frustrate myself rethinking it over.

Long story short, we did make our announcement and my mother-in-law was ecstatic and crying. My father-in-law was his usual, asking all the hard questions right away - as most men I would say. But overall they were happy, supportive and my mother-in-law, as she's always been, cannot wait to be a grandma.

I pretty much made them swear up and down that they could not tell anyone - only family. 98% of their family live out of state so that's not the problem. The problem is they go to my parent's church and we know alot of people there. I'm afraid that they could tell someone they 'think' doesn't know us or our family or even friends of our family and then it would get out before we wanted it to.

I don't feel embarrassed or secretive about adoption. I think it's more to do with the fact that we've only filled out one little piece of paper and that's all we've done. We don't have that much information and I want to be a little further in before our other friends and acquaintances bombard us with questions we can't answer. I want to have more of a grasp on what's going on and then be able to share it.

So now our next step is telling my family. We all have a wedding to attend this Saturday and we've scheduled to have dinner afterward with my parents and brother and sister-in-law. John's already told Matt and Jenny that we have something to tell our parents. Sigh... My parents don't even know that we have something to tell them. Why make them antsy and curious for no reason? I'm ready to tell them and I know my dad will probably love it when we tell him that we're looking into Honduras - seeing also as he's leaving for Honduras this coming Monday for another missions trip. I know they'll be supportive and I know they'll be happy, but deep down I'm still scared in a way and still reserved.

Praying for God's grace.